Ah, it’s been awhile. I owe an update of sorts, although I feel as if I’m running the same circles. Thanksgiving has come and past and my Florida travels are over. I’m exhausted, to say the least. But things are just beginning for me.
In my last post, I announced my decision to run the 57 miles from Penn State to Bucknell at Homecoming 2017 to raise money for Lyme disease research and awareness. While I still haven’t decided if I’ll be running November 2 or 3, I have decided I’ll be raising money for the Global Lyme Alliance. Not only does GLA fund Lyme disease research, but they also raise awareness of lyme and its complexity among the public AND doctors. The first blood test I ever had when I began feeling sick over a year and a half ago was for lyme but my physician told me it was negative, despite several flags. Had she been more lyme-literate, I could have saved thousands of dollars and saved myself from plenty of pain.
So, training begins. I’d like to say I’ve built myself a pretty decent base, but I’m always hesitant. Last week I hit my highest mileage week since my stress fracture and I feel great. (Ok, I’m a little sore from over-doing it lifting weights for the first time in many months, but that’s besides the point). I’m being super flexible with my runs right now. Everything depends on how I’m feeling from my medications, and I’m trying to learn how to slow myself down. This is imperative, and I’ve been failing on my own at this. I had my twin sister, Erin, pace me for my first 10 miler this past Sunday (she’s an Ironman and her pacing for endurance events is ON POINT) and although it was difficult for me to stick to a slower pace at first, it was nice to finish with some fuel in the tank. Practice makes perfect, right?
Around lunch today I headed out for an 11 miler even though I’d been feeling sick all morning and I wasn’t sure what to expect. It’s been a few days since my last run and as I started out in the much-colder-weather-than-Florida, I wasn’t feeling good. Within the first two miles I thought about turning around and calling it quits. But as I ran down the C&O canal in complete solitude, something changed.
My breathing slowed. My shoulders relaxed. My stomach didn’t seem to hurt as much. In the silence of the tow path I let my mind wander, tentatively allowing myself to reach into the past and think of long-gone runs on the Princeton Delaware & Raritan canal with Erin and my dad. It’s always the chilly mornings I remember, the ones where we were so cold we ran the first mile too fast, just to warm our bones. I remembered looking across the Millstone River at the great Princeton mansions and my father saying maybe one day, if I became a famous author, I could own one of those houses.
Today, the bare, shivering trees and deserted tow path reminded me of those early morning long runs in Princeton and it gave my mind the fuel to continue. I didn’t know it then, but those runs with Erin and my dad were special. There was a magical feeling running down that tow path, chattering about nothing and everything, urging each other along, I’ve yet to be able to reproduce. And while I’m grateful I was able to run with both Erin and my Dad again this past thanksgiving – it wasn’t the same. Change isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but I know we could all feel some of the magic was gone. When we used to run, we let everything go so we could be free and happy. This thanksgiving no one could let go. I felt our worries, anxieties, precautions hanging over us with every step in the Florida heat.
I’ve come a long way since my early-teenager days running in Princeton, but I had something back then I didn’t know to appreciate: innocence. No one had told me yet I needed to lose weight to continue being a competitive runner. No one was judging me. Life hadn’t sucker-punched me yet like it would in high school, and all I knew was the happiness running with my dad and twin produced.
So today, I let go. The miles ticked by as I zoned out and listened to each soft footfall, and my even breath in and out. My aches and pains didn’t matter, and I pretended I was plodding down the tow path in Princeton, making my way back to the car with Erin and dad so we could head into downtown and get hot chocolate. Today, I only cared about being happy during the short portion of my day I have the privilege to dedicate to nature and running. When I finished 11 miles I wasn’t surprised. FINALLY – I found my stride.
And I’m excited for my runs to come.
This morning I committed and signed up for the DC NorthFace Endurance Challenge 50k, April 29. It’s going to be my first ultra (if you don’t count the ultra Ragnar Relay about a month before) and I’m so excited. It feels good having a few races on the calendar again, even if they’re a long way off. Since deciding to run the 57 miles to Bucknell, I feel my running has purpose again.
So stay tuned! I’m still sorting out when I’ll actually launch my fundraising campaign with GLA and I want to get better at posting more frequently. I’d like to do some vlogging for you guys one of these days but yeah, not sure how it would exactly go. If you’re ever looking for more frequent updates on my training, I like to update my Instagram a lot more than this blog – @amd022.
‘Til next time!
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